welcome to my world!

so I'm new to this. I guess I just entered the 21st century! my hope is that I can keep family and friends updated on our crazy life .I think it'll be easier than trying to text everybody individually.

  so today started out as usual .kids fighting. baby crying .chores needing to be done .breakfast to be made .seems like life falls apart in the first 5 minutes ...especially when I didn't pick up the house last night .had a killer headache and went to bed leaving the dishes undone .so this morning I'm trying to survive .I'll hoping we get to thrive part later on!!

I think this is Just our life.  whether we have 2 kids or five kids it seems like the jobs are always there ...along with the guilt .I had a great talk with one of my best friend the other day. we were talking about guilt and how as a mother she feels guilty all the time. always leaving something undone ,always leaving someone out, knowing you should have been better, should have done something different . this stress itself can be exhausting (let alone our tasks. And hobbies... What are those?!) I read in a devotional the other day about the word " overwhelmed" and that when we know that God has given us our life as it is, we shouldn't be using the word "overwhelmed". We make our kids be careful with what they say and how they act and then we give ourselves license! our kids get in trouble for using the words stupid or dumb(or worse) and yet we turn around and then we use the word overwhelmed. As in:" I feel so overwhelmed".  and it's true .I feel overwhelmed a lot, but I think a lot of it is in perspective. this is my life. this is the life God has given me . he has given me the resources (if I am to thrive and not just survive ).

so that's my goal for the rest of this life , for the rest of this week, for the rest of today .I'm hoping to try to focus on the fact that in 20 minutes this problem will probably dissipate; and in the meantime try to keep looking up at the true author of joy so that I might thrive and fly on those wings as eagles that were promised but seem so elusive.